Sadly I still feel rough as hell but on a day like today I’d be a complete muppet to stay in bed and be ill. It’s absolutely flipping gorgeous outside at the moment and I’ve been up early (armed with tissues) walking around in the sunshine and feeling generally pretty good about life. It doesn’t … More Loud shirts are back baby!
It’s 2am. I’m having one of those nights where my mind just refuses to switch off and after a few hours of restless sleep I’m left mulling over the events of my week and things on the horizon. Whenever I’m like this my mind seems to be moving at a million miles an hour – … More Two years have passed…
I’m a real creature of habit and it’s been a very very long time that I’ve not published a post on a Saturday so let me first of all assure you that the lack of an update yesterday was a good thing – and I’m not dead or in trouble! Sometimes change is a positive … More Culture Vulture Part One
Wow. It’s been a cathartic week in blogland for me. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so driven to tell people how I arrived at where I currently am in life. Mentally it’s been a little exhausting though and truthfully at times a little upsetting. Although much of it has been shared before I’ve never … More What else happened this week?
Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here) Part Two (here) Part Three (here) and Part Four (here). By now you know the drill. This time it’s gonna be a really long post. Get your cup of tea ready. By the way – if you’re still reading after all those … More Part Five: The road not yet walked
Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here) Part Two (here) and Part Three (here). By now you know the drill. It’s gonna be a long post. Get your cup of tea ready. (As before my ‘lightbulb moments’ will be in red.) It’s now 16th April 2016. I’ve been … More Part Four: Group love
Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here) and Part Two (here). By now you know the drill. It’s gonna be a long post. Get your cup of tea ready. (As before my ‘lightbulb moments’ will be in red. Time will also skip forward as we go on – because … More Part three: Suppression
Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here). If you’ve already done that (and you have a cup of tea or coffee ready to go) then let me continue… (note – bits highlighted in red are things I feel are important. In this ongoing little series they’re the … More Part two: The beginnings of honesty
Firstly I apologise to those that have been here a while. I’m probably going to re-tread a lot of things because the story of how I came to lose all of this weight is pretty complex. You might need a cup of tea. If I go right back to the earliest time that I recall … More Part One: Where did all this start?
One of the side effects of doing what I’ve done with weight loss has been that I get a lot of people using the ‘I’ word when they refer to me. It’s one of two words that have been ever present companions during my weight loss – the other beginning with ‘J’. For different reasons … More Today is brought to you by the letters J and I
Well. I have a shedload of clothes. It’s now 11pm on Sunday evening and after trying on a lot of things and making (what I felt) were some tough choices I’ve put the following aside for charity. These items range from 3XL items down to some unusually large XL’s, and from 46-40in waist and chest … More Gone to charity
Some years ago in the late 90’s I was a care worker and I looked after adults with learning disabilities. One of the guys I regularly supported was often pretty darned grumpy during winter months. It was around this period that I came across the term S.A.D. (Seasonal adjustive disorder) for the first time when … More Not SAD in the sunshine
Thanks to the miracle of WordPress yesterday evening many readers might have discovered a phantom menace of a post in their inboxes. The post was no ghost however. It was in fact a work of lyrical genius. This moment of intellectual enlightenment captured in print was finely crafted, interlaced with wit as well as erudite … More Ticketty Boo
Taking the pressure off myself a bit yesterday resulted in something wonderful. Sleep. Beautiful, delightful, invigorating and refreshing sleeeeeeeep. I was so wrapped up with worry and stress that I hadn’t noticed I wasn’t getting enough of it – and that this was probably layering itself cumulatively on top of other negative thoughts. Somewhere along … More Keep going
Firstly – thanks to everyone that contacted me after my last post. Secondly – I apologise if for the most part I’ve been less communicative than usual. I’ve not completely emerged from my ‘blue period’ this week – but today I definitely feel a little better. Not only is it Friday but in between periods … More Be more kind
I slept like a log last night. I wasn’t stressed or worried about losing weight at all – which I’m honestly not sure how I feel about. I already miss the anticipation a little bit of getting a new, lower number in my book – because now I have a range to adapt to rather than a … More Yay for maintenance
So – now I have a new challenge in life. Weight maintenance. It’s certainly not as sexy or attention grabbing as weight loss but (in every respect that counts) it’s now become my most important focus above all else. If this is to be compared to evolution then it feels akin to Neanderthal me overnight … More A new objective
I’m a little achey after the up and downhill of the end to end walk in Malvern on Sunday. It’s currently precisely midnight on either Monday evening or Tuesday morning (depending on how you view it) and I’m lying in a warm bed within an unusually warm house whilst the world outside turns into an … More Snowdrops in Hatton
It’s 5am on Sunday, my alarm has just gone off and I’m tired. REALLY TIRED. I can lay the blame at the feet of temporary insomnia – which usually only occurs before Saturday but absolutely never usually happens after Saturday. The truth of it is though that this broken sleep comes without my usual twin helpers (stress … More Malvern hills end to end and back!
This morning I got out of bed after waking up early and reading for a while. I couldn’t get back to sleep so I decided that I’d go out for a walk that was a bit longer than my usual route to the office. It was a nice day for it! There’s no denying though … More Success not donuts