Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here) and Part Two (here). By now you know the drill. It’s gonna be a long post. Get your cup of tea ready. (As before my ‘lightbulb moments’ will be in red. Time will also skip forward as we go on – because … More Part three: Suppression
Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here). If you’ve already done that (and you have a cup of tea or coffee ready to go) then let me continue… (note – bits highlighted in red are things I feel are important. In this ongoing little series they’re the … More Part two: The beginnings of honesty
Firstly I apologise to those that have been here a while. I’m probably going to re-tread a lot of things because the story of how I came to lose all of this weight is pretty complex. You might need a cup of tea. If I go right back to the earliest time that I recall … More Part One: Where did all this start?
I slept like a log last night. I wasn’t stressed or worried about losing weight at all – which I’m honestly not sure how I feel about. I already miss the anticipation a little bit of getting a new, lower number in my book – because now I have a range to adapt to rather than a … More Yay for maintenance
It’s Friday – and more than I have been for a while lately I find myself both preoccupied and a little concerned about my weigh in on Saturday. Although I don’t feel that I’ve lost my way in any significant sense I do have a lingering feeling that at the very least I’ve temporarily misplaced … More More weight loss psychology…
After the euphoria of adrenaline that my short attempts to run produced on Sunday (link) I’ve been dealing with the after effect – which is raging cramp in my quads. It’s not apocalyptically awful if I’m honest (I can still move) but it is surprising because it took a couple of days for the full … More Anniversaries on the horizon
I’m easily pleased. Silly silly little things make me really really happy – and I’m thankfully not alone in this. Today I was at the recycling centre in Leamington. I always pop in as I pass – and whilst browsing at the Age UK shop I saw a young girl. She was around 10-12 years … More Stay creative
As regular visitors (and subscribers) to this blog have probably noticed there has been a higher volume of posting than usual this week, and I heartily apologise if you’re getting sick of hearing from me. A few more introspective posts have left my drafts folder than normally would primarily because the last seven days have … More Au Revoir Supercoat!
It’s amazing how much power there is in a photo. Some of them seem almost translucent in their insignificance, and you can flick through them like decks of cards. The subjects that they contain mean absolutely nothing – but then you’ll see one that for no apparent reason contains a spark, which makes your heart … More It’s slowly getting easier
Boris is getting fitter. The poor little mite’s suffered quite a bit of late with some spinal pain and has been seeing a doggy therapist. With some physio he’s managed to progress from yelps of pain when moving to a noticeably more bouncy gait as he trotted around the park and today, as I walked … More Mint on saucer
There are lots of after effects when you do something negative in life – and over the years I’ve carried around more than my fair share of regret about lots of things I’ve done – or (more often) not done. Right up until the day she died my mother was trapped inside memories of her past, … More Snowdon epilogue
When my mother died there were many many things left behind. I hated pretty much all of the time that I spent with my brother sifting through what I viewed at the time as the rubbish and wreckage of a decaying life. For those who didn’t arrive at the start of my blogging career (which … More Pegs
I think my mood is being affected by my cold as I’ve no other reason to wake up feeling glum. However for some reason I did. Oddly today everything seemed grey when I opened my eyes and my enthusiasm for anything and everything was at rock bottom. Although… now that I think about it – … More Spring
The 26th and 28th of January are a big days for me – but for very different reasons. Whilst one is cause for celebration the other is not, and both have been playing on my mind for weeks. I need to get my thoughts about these out of my head and onto the page, despite their anniversary still being a few … More Anniversaries
Despite the dire weather warnings and promises of storm fronts ruining Christmas today has (so far) been quite nice! When I awoke this morning without a hangover (because I no longer drink) and without a sense that my trousers wouldn’t fit (because I’ve lost lots of weight) and without guilt (because I only ate virtuous … More Christmas Swanlings
I can’t believe that it’s Wednesday already. I’m honestly not sure where the hell time is going at the moment. I’ve been ‘twalking’ with a friend around the park today and it’s been absolutely perfect weather for it. Whilst the breeze was undeniably cold the sun has been warm and there wasn’t a cloud in the sky. … More Wait, what? Wednesday?!
It’s often the case that we understand ourselves more when we’re faced with an example of someone that reacts to a situation in a very different way to how we might. Some years ago I was in a different place mentally to the one I’m in now, and looking back at who I was then … More Cup half empty
I was grocery shopping in Aldi yesterday morning. As budget shopping goes I’ve come to really appreciate the minimalism of the place and the sometimes bizarre apparel that they sell right next to the cherry tomatoes. If the zombie apocalypse strikes while I’m out shopping then I’d prefer to be in a grocery store that sells … More Appreciating freedoms
‘I’d forgotten how much I missed you.’ The words almost visibly hung in the air for me as soon as they left my friend’s mouth. It had been too long since we had gotten together – but also paradoxically it didn’t seem like five minutes had elapsed since we last spoke. Time (and my previously ever shrinking … More Cracked pot
I was clearly an unpopular visitor to the post office. People welcomed by others in the queue are the types who want a book of stamps or to quickly draw money out of their post office savings account. People like me with a huge bag full of eBay parcels are not the kind of patron that … More Nearly a fire extinguisher