I think my mood is being affected by my cold as I’ve no other reason to wake up feeling glum. However for some reason I did. Oddly today everything seemed grey when I opened my eyes and my enthusiasm for anything and everything was at rock bottom. Although… now that I think about it – … More Spring
The 26th and 28th of January are a big days for me – but for very different reasons. Whilst one is cause for celebration the other is not, and both have been playing on my mind for weeks. I need to get my thoughts about these out of my head and onto the page, despite their anniversary still being a few … More Anniversaries
Despite the dire weather warnings and promises of storm fronts ruining Christmas today has (so far) been quite nice! When I awoke this morning without a hangover (because I no longer drink) and without a sense that my trousers wouldn’t fit (because I’ve lost lots of weight) and without guilt (because I only ate virtuous … More Christmas Swanlings
I can’t believe that it’s Wednesday already. I’m honestly not sure where the hell time is going at the moment. I’ve been ‘twalking’ with a friend around the park today and it’s been absolutely perfect weather for it. Whilst the breeze was undeniably cold the sun has been warm and there wasn’t a cloud in the sky. … More Wait, what? Wednesday?!
It’s often the case that we understand ourselves more when we’re faced with an example of someone that reacts to a situation in a very different way to how we might. Some years ago I was in a different place mentally to the one I’m in now, and looking back at who I was then … More Cup half empty
I was grocery shopping in Aldi yesterday morning. As budget shopping goes I’ve come to really appreciate the minimalism of the place and the sometimes bizarre apparel that they sell right next to the cherry tomatoes. If the zombie apocalypse strikes while I’m out shopping then I’d prefer to be in a grocery store that sells … More Appreciating freedoms
‘I’d forgotten how much I missed you.’ The words almost visibly hung in the air for me as soon as they left my friend’s mouth. It had been too long since we had gotten together – but also paradoxically it didn’t seem like five minutes had elapsed since we last spoke. Time (and my previously ever shrinking … More Cracked pot
I was clearly an unpopular visitor to the post office. People welcomed by others in the queue are the types who want a book of stamps or to quickly draw money out of their post office savings account. People like me with a huge bag full of eBay parcels are not the kind of patron that … More Nearly a fire extinguisher
Yesterday evening was not so great. After my bath yesterday I sat for some time relaxing in the armchair of my bay window watching the sun go down, completely blissed out. The only thing interrupting the sound of the waves was an occasional rumble from my stomach. I hadn’t eaten anything since midday – and … More The rinds of life
One of the luxuries of being recently unemployed is just deciding to get up and do something and not worry about where you have to be the following day. Yesterday evening I was talking to a lady on Facebook and (as is my tendency lately) I started being very honest about my day. I’d wanted … More Daveyprune
I asked my friend the other day ‘how much is too much’ when it comes to exercise. I’m still so unfamiliar with how my body reacts to it that I’m like a little child in many respects, and I have to hurt myself a lot of the time to learn not to do something. My … More Thirteen and counting
I’ve spent some time today emptying the odds and sods from my drawers at work, so that when we finally leave the office for the last time in two weeks I don’t have a huge pile of crap to lug home with me. I’ve learned over the years (particularly after clearing out my mom’s bungalow) that keeping … More Gifted by the Pope or signed by Elvis
Apart from a brief trip out yesterday to get some essentials (mainly of the brown caffeinated kind) today is my first proper day out of the house since Monday thanks to the flu – and despite sniffing and coughing throughout today’s Slimming World meeting I’m glad I went. If I hadn’t (amongst other things) then … More On target dieting
While in Starbucks yesterday I was seated next to an old man. When I arrived at my seat he was by the window, in a chair that if I’m honest I’d have preferred instead of the one I sat in just opposite him. He had a better view. I looked around for another similar chair – … More It will just take a little time.
Whilst I’m sure my mood will continue to change like the wind today I feel positive, and crucially I slept very well. My initial worries and fears about redundancy have given way to thoughts of possibility and probability – and after some chats last night and this morning with co-workers both past and present I’m feeling more like … More Cheese
I left work a bit early today to visit the funeral director for the last time. I’d been putting off collecting my mom’s rings for long enough. The traffic was absolutely awful, and as I sat at a complete standstill on road after road watching swarms of schoolchildren crossing behind me, in front of me, to the … More My Guardian Angel
Some people are complex and confusing. Just when you think you have a measure of who they are you’ll find something out about them that seems out of place or character. Oddly the death of someone can answer almost as many questions as it poses, as you sift through their personal belongings. My mother didn’t … More Maybe
I was wandering through Sainsburys the other day with my brother when I happened to stop in the tea and coffee aisle and ponder a particularly decorative box. It was labelled ‘womankind’ and clearly not aimed at me, but I like shiny things and couldn’t help but stop and look. This pink box was swathed in floral artwork … More Flat white
If there’s anything scanning photos teaches you its that if you buy a cheap crappy camera then you take crappy pictures. Tonight I’ve scanned nearly 100 and they are universally awful quality, with grainy images of filtered memories. I remember the way the camera they were taken with creaked as you held it. I can feel … More Craggy faces
An empty thought is actually pretty large. For something that apparently has no mass it appears to fill an almost infinite space. My head must have been full of these for quite a while – and when people started to respond to my first blog post I realised that I had been wandering through a world of colleagues … More Get better.