Au Revoir Supercoat!

As regular visitors (and subscribers) to this blog have probably noticed there has been a higher volume of posting than usual this week, and I heartily apologise if you’re getting sick of hearing from me. A few more introspective posts have left my drafts folder than normally would primarily because the last seven days have … More Au Revoir Supercoat!

Mint on saucer

Boris is getting fitter. The poor little mite’s suffered quite a bit of late with some spinal pain and has been seeing a doggy therapist. With some physio he’s managed to progress from yelps of pain when moving to a noticeably more bouncy gait as he trotted around the park and today, as I walked … More Mint on saucer

Snowdon epilogue

There are lots of after effects when you do something negative in life – and over the years I’ve carried around more than my fair share of regret about lots of things I’ve done – or (more often) not done. Right up until the day she died my mother was trapped inside memories of her past, … More Snowdon epilogue

Pegs

When my mother died there were many many things left behind. I hated pretty much all of the time that I spent with my brother sifting through what I viewed at the time as the rubbish and wreckage of a decaying life. For those who didn’t arrive at the start of my blogging career (which … More Pegs

Spring

I think my mood is being affected by my cold as I’ve no other reason to wake up feeling glum. However for some reason I did. Oddly today everything seemed grey when I opened my eyes and my enthusiasm for anything and everything was at rock bottom. Although… now that I think about it – … More Spring

Anniversaries

The 26th and 28th of January are a big days for me – but for very different reasons. Whilst one is cause for celebration the other is not, and both have been playing on my mind for weeks. I need to get my thoughts about these out of my head and onto the page, despite their anniversary still being a few … More Anniversaries

Christmas Swanlings

Despite the dire weather warnings and promises of storm fronts ruining Christmas today has (so far) been quite nice! When I awoke this morning without a hangover (because I no longer drink) and without a sense that my trousers wouldn’t fit (because I’ve lost lots of weight) and without guilt (because I only ate virtuous … More Christmas Swanlings

Wait, what? Wednesday?!

I can’t believe that it’s Wednesday already. I’m honestly not sure where the hell time is going at the moment. I’ve been ‘twalking’ with a friend around the park today and it’s been absolutely perfect weather for it. Whilst the breeze was undeniably cold the sun has been warm and there wasn’t a cloud in the sky. … More Wait, what? Wednesday?!

Cup half empty

It’s often the case that we understand ourselves more when we’re faced with an example of someone that reacts to a situation in a very different way to how we might. Some years ago I was in a different place mentally to the one I’m in now, and looking back at who I was then … More Cup half empty

Appreciating freedoms

I was grocery shopping in Aldi yesterday morning. As budget shopping goes I’ve come to really appreciate the minimalism of the place and the sometimes bizarre apparel that they sell right next to the cherry tomatoes. If the zombie apocalypse strikes while I’m out shopping then I’d prefer to be in a grocery store that sells … More Appreciating freedoms

Cracked pot

‘I’d forgotten how much I missed you.’ The words almost visibly hung in the air for me as soon as they left my friend’s mouth. It had been too long since we had gotten together – but also paradoxically it didn’t seem like five minutes had elapsed since we last spoke. Time (and my previously ever shrinking … More Cracked pot

The rinds of life

Yesterday evening was not so great.  After my bath yesterday I sat for some time relaxing in the armchair of my bay window watching the sun go down, completely blissed out.  The only thing interrupting the sound of the waves was an occasional rumble from my stomach. I hadn’t eaten anything since midday – and … More The rinds of life

Daveyprune

One of the luxuries of being recently unemployed is just deciding to get up and do something and not worry about where you have to be the following day.  Yesterday evening I was talking to a lady on Facebook and (as is my tendency lately) I started being very honest about my day. I’d wanted … More Daveyprune

On target dieting

Apart from a brief trip out yesterday to get some essentials (mainly of the brown caffeinated kind) today is my first proper day out of the house since Monday thanks to the flu – and despite sniffing and coughing throughout today’s Slimming World meeting I’m glad I went. If I hadn’t (amongst other things) then … More On target dieting

Cheese

Whilst I’m sure my mood will continue to change like the wind today I feel positive, and crucially I slept very well. My initial worries and fears about redundancy have given way to thoughts of possibility and probability – and after some chats last night and this morning with co-workers both past and present I’m feeling more like … More Cheese

My Guardian Angel

I left work a bit early today to visit the funeral director for the last time. I’d been putting off collecting my mom’s rings for long enough. The traffic was absolutely awful, and as I sat at a complete standstill on road after road watching swarms of schoolchildren crossing behind me, in front of me, to the … More My Guardian Angel

Maybe

Some people are complex and confusing. Just when you think you have a measure of who they are you’ll find something out about them that seems out of place or character. Oddly the death of someone can answer almost as many questions as it poses, as you sift through their personal belongings. My mother didn’t … More Maybe

Flat white

I was wandering through Sainsburys the other day with my brother when I happened to stop in the tea and coffee aisle and ponder a particularly decorative box. It was labelled ‘womankind’ and clearly not aimed at me, but I like shiny things and couldn’t help but stop and look. This pink box was swathed in floral artwork … More Flat white

Craggy faces

If there’s anything scanning photos teaches you its that if you buy a cheap crappy camera then you take crappy pictures. Tonight I’ve scanned nearly 100 and they are universally awful quality, with grainy images of filtered memories. I remember the way the camera they were taken with creaked as you held it. I can feel … More Craggy faces

Get better.

An empty thought is actually pretty large. For something that apparently has no mass it appears to fill an almost infinite space. My head must have been full of these for quite a while – and when people started to respond to my first blog post I realised that I had been wandering through a world of colleagues … More Get better.