When your day starts with spilling hot coffee all over your back and shoulder (a feat in itself when the coffee in question is your
Category: Depression
Waking up happy
Moments of success are precious. They don’t always come along with great regularity, so when they do they’re worth noting down and sticking in the
Part three: Suppression
Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here) and Part Two (here). By now you know the drill.
Part two: The beginnings of honesty
Before you start reading it’s probably a good idea that you recap on Part One (here). If you’ve already done that (and you have a
The truth
It’s a nice morning for a walk – and at least temporarily there is a blue sky to be found if you look upwards. If
Be more kind
Firstly – thanks to everyone that contacted me after my last post. Secondly – I apologise if for the most part I’ve been less communicative
The summit
One of the most important things to me is honesty in my posts and even though my natural impulse is to hibernate when I feel
Chasing a sunrise
I didn’t have a great night’s sleep last night. I had a lot on my mind and kept turning memories over and over. However –
Anniversaries on the horizon
After the euphoria of adrenaline that my short attempts to run produced on Sunday (link) I’ve been dealing with the after effect – which is
Ghosts of Christmas past
It’s Christmas Eve. I’m lying in bed and my eyes are burning. They’re itchy and uncomfortable from tiredness mostly – and I suspect that this
Productive Sunday
Although I’m used to filling my day with things to do, sometimes it hits me just how much I can fit in now that I’m
Exposed foundations
Last night I had a vivid nightmare. In this lucid (partially waking) waterfall of subconscious fears I had rented my home to a close friend.
Boiling the ocean
After I wrote yesterday’s blog I started thinking about my early posts. As I’ve said a few times before here, although I love that people
Walnut cheeks
If I’m honest I’ve been in a bit of a grump today. Outwardly this (I think) wouldn’t have been apparent – but deep down I
It’s slowly getting easier
It’s amazing how much power there is in a photo. Some of them seem almost translucent in their insignificance, and you can flick through them
Falling pianos
Something that I (shamefully) used to say to close friends and relatives was that I fully expected to die in the very near future, and
Fifteen stone certificate
I spoke too soon about the rain holding off yesterday. When I woke up this morning it was chucking it down – and the whole
99% are really really good
There are few better places to reflect on things than a graveyard. I started writing this post in the middle of an early morning walk,
Looking for the spark
I’m beginning to think I’m the wrong shape. Actually – scratch that. I know I’m the wrong shape. I don’t for a minute think that I’m
The thought
If yesterday proved anything to me it was that just when I think I have a handle on life – and that I’m sorted and happy
