I think my mood is being affected by my cold as I’ve no other reason to wake up feeling glum. However for some reason I did. Oddly today everything seemed grey when I opened my eyes and my enthusiasm for anything and everything was at rock bottom. Although… now that I think about it – … More Spring
It was a grey, damp, rainy day yesterday, and the light levels barely rose above ‘early evening’ all day long. It’s slightly brighter today – but not by much. It’s easy to feel glum on a day like this – especially when you’re faced with a bewildering array of job sites (every time I follow … More Dream meanings
When I look back on 2016 I’m going to have extremely mixed feelings about it. Most of my blog posts so far have been about personal change and how I’ve been trying to turn my life around – but tonight it’s not. I never saw Star Wars at the cinema. When it came out my family … More Aren’t you a little short for a stormtrooper?
I’m sitting at the moment during a mid show intermission in a school hall in Coventry, where I’ve come to see the Silver Linings barbershop chorus. It’s late on a Friday evening and as I type this post on my phone I can hear a large hubbub of people behind a large black theatre curtain to the left of me. … More Silver Linings
I’m having a day of ‘rest’ today. Well at least from walking – it’s not really a day of chilling – but time to tidy my house. It’s become a bit of a mess in my recent prolonged outdoor absences. It’s no excuse I know but I have been trying not to sit indoors at all … More Counting the pile
Today I was back at the Arrow Valley Nature reserve in Redditch to meet an old friend. He had contacted me after a recent blog had resonated with him and had suggested we meet for a walk and a chat. As we did so we discussed some of my recent posts along with the events in his own … More Twalking
There’s an advert I used to see on the television all the time for Disneyland in Florida. The children can’t sleep prior to their journey to the resort – and a little boy says ‘I’m SO excited!’ In such a way that it has stuck in my mind for years. It’s a clever commercial as … More A moment away from change
Today has been a good one. My elderly car (she’s 166) passed its MOT without any kind of mechanical fail or advisory. To my recollection, apart from tyres, this has been the case every single time she’s gone under the microscope and I can honestly say that the advertising slogan is true. Few things in … More Around Warwick and Priory Park
The last couple of days have felt a bit odd. Some parts of me are supremely relaxed, while others are quietly panicking about not having a job anymore. It’s an odd sensation – and I didn’t feel the way I expected to when I woke up on Monday. It isn’t like I’ve never had a day … More My new interim weight goal
The park this morning was a tough sell when my alarm went off at 5.30am. Although I didn’t really need to get up that early today I’d forgotten to re-set my wake up reminder to an hour or so later. I looked out of the window and it had been raining (with the threat of more … More Six month anniversary
I’ve spent some time today emptying the odds and sods from my drawers at work, so that when we finally leave the office for the last time in two weeks I don’t have a huge pile of crap to lug home with me. I’ve learned over the years (particularly after clearing out my mom’s bungalow) that keeping … More Gifted by the Pope or signed by Elvis
Apart from a brief trip out yesterday to get some essentials (mainly of the brown caffeinated kind) today is my first proper day out of the house since Monday thanks to the flu – and despite sniffing and coughing throughout today’s Slimming World meeting I’m glad I went. If I hadn’t (amongst other things) then … More On target dieting
Breakfast today was a 600g punnet of cherry tomatoes, a pint of water and my pills. The tomatoes were nice. I was looking forward to them actually. I forgetfully left them on the work surface in the kitchen overnight instead of putting them in the fridge and when I came to eat them the morning … More 100
This morning when I awoke the thinnest sliver of perspective stood between Thursday starting as a good day or a bad day. On the face of things it was a recipie for a bad mood. I’d had a warning on my car to get my brake discs checked for several days. It only flicked on … More Mood share
Today I woke up early and decided to start cooking. Angie in Slimming World handed out a challenge on Saturday – to eat 2 breakfasts, 2 lunches and 2 evening meals in the coming week that I haven’t had before or haven’t had for a while. So far I’ve already had one of the breakfasts … More AssPasta and the 27th
So – the way I see it – Saturday has now become the new focal point for my mood and aspirations. Previously Saturday was a bombed out wasteland. It used to be reserved as hangover territory and generally didn’t limp into life until after midday. Now it appears to be waking me up at 8am … More Bombed out wasteland
The people who know me will probably be best placed to decide whether I suffer from stress or not. Previously I would have been 99.9% sure that I did not (outside of parental bereavement and funerals etc), but I’m beginning to question that now. I’m becoming VERY aware lately that my stress management (usually alcohol) in … More Moment of Zen
Well that’s the first week done. It’s not been easy and there has been a lot to think about and process. Again I’ve been amazed at how so many people can be so different but also so much alike in their feelings and resulting actions. Normally at this time I would be reflecting on the … More Labels and catalysts
I left work a bit early today to visit the funeral director for the last time. I’d been putting off collecting my mom’s rings for long enough. The traffic was absolutely awful, and as I sat at a complete standstill on road after road watching swarms of schoolchildren crossing behind me, in front of me, to the … More My Guardian Angel
Some people are complex and confusing. Just when you think you have a measure of who they are you’ll find something out about them that seems out of place or character. Oddly the death of someone can answer almost as many questions as it poses, as you sift through their personal belongings. My mother didn’t … More Maybe
Well. That’s that. Nothing ever goes how you expect it to. That’s nice though. It makes life interesting and worth living. The white van cowboy arrived at the bungalow this time wearing a Russian army Ushanka hat, channeling chi from the other side of the Atlantic. VanManski was also thankfully 2 hours late. I say … More Citrus Sinensis
I was asked something thought provoking a week ago. ‘If you could go backwards or forwards in time, which way would you go?’ My thoughts had initially been quite grandiose while I mulled over my reply. Epic and exciting periods in history immediately presented themselves. I could see the pyramids being built in Egypt and … More Backwards or forwards?
‘It’s a Pegasus!’ said my friends’ eldest daughter this evening when I asked her why her little pink toy horse had wings. ‘It can fly!’ she said smiling – immediately demonstrating this irrefutable fact as she trailed it through the air, walking away from me with her younger sibling. I was surprised. Not because of her vocabulary. She’s … More Pegasus
Well I did it – After much deliberation, and not a small degree of fear I (in my early forties) just handed in my notice at work this morning with nothing to go to after 15 years unbroken employment. I live on my own, have a mortgage, no dependants and no idea what to do … More Mid life crisis day one!