If I’m completely honest the last couple of days have been something of a disappointment when it comes to weight and self perception.
They’ve been very positive and upbeat days otherwise – but my dreams haven’t been great lately so I know that deep down I’m bothered by not just this but a couple of other things too.
When I last posted on Saturday morning in group I was pretty happy – having stepped on the scales (twice just to make sure) and was greeted by the news that I was just about back in target.
The following day however (after eating only plums, salad and weetabix with frozen fruit) the scales told a totally different story.
What the effing eff?! They’ve never let me down like this before and I seriously cannot account for where another eight flipping pounds has appeared from.
This can’t happen overnight – which leads me to think that this is either fluid retention or the scales were telling me total lies on Saturday morning.
I stepped off, stepped on again and saw the same – just like the day before.
Cue a mini self effacing meltdown and several ranty texts to Angie where I railed against the injustice of it all.
The mad thing is that I usually know when this is going to happen. My body feels a certain way and certain ‘snug’ shirts usually tug a little at the waist.
At the moment everything shirt wise fits perfectly – and if anything I feel trimmer than usual.
That’s not reflected on Slimming World’s scales though – which show that despite some serious hard work this week I’m still not back in target.
Now – I almost typed ‘I’ve only lost a pound’ – but the truth of it is that I’ve told so many people at various meetings that there is no such thing as only losing anything.
You either lose or you don’t – and even a maintain is a victory, so I’m going to have to begrudgingly accept my own advice, reframe the narrative and take it on the chin.
I lost a pound!!!
(Note – the author is still not feeling it – but he is working on it)
So – where is the smoking gun?
I’m not in diet mode – and I’m eating all the right foods – but if I’m brutally honest I’m also struggling with portion sizes.
However I’ve been mitigating this by mostly eating SP food.
I’ve also done a lot of exercise.
Since last Monday I’ve swum almost 9km and walked 63 miles.
I’m not blaming this on muscle gain mind you – but the exercise may well have a lot to do with why things feel trimmer.
Anyway – I have to get ready – I have a busy working day ahead of me and I need to get ready.
My next weigh in will be a Saturday in just under two weeks time (thanks to an ever changing work and personal life schedule) so I have to make sure that I remain committed and focused in the meantime.
This being at target business can be a tough place at the best of times – but currently I’m definitely feeling the (entirely self applied) pressure.
I see the 2019 SW MOTY handover point on the horizon and it’s less than a month away.
In the next few weeks so much change (almost all good) is happening that I don’t know what to think about first!!!