There was a time when my weight loss horizon was a distant dream – and getting to it seemed like it would either take forever or at times simply never happen at all.
Today I’m yet another step closer to where I want to be but oddly (for the moment at least) I don’t feel excited – I just feel a bit worn down by the mental effort that’s sometimes required to achieve long term continual weight loss.
I’ve pledged to write everything down in Jan that I’ve done with diet and exercise – but truthfully it’s been grating on me a bit and there have been times that I’ve actually said out loud ‘f&&k this – I’m not doing it!’
However – this is mostly because I don’t want to admit what I’m actually eating – so it’s probably a good thing I’m doing it and remaining honest with myself and everyone else.
It’s been grim and cold this week and honestly when I get home I’ve just wanted to curl up under a double thickness duvet, eat cottage cheese or apples till I pop and watch Netflix.
There have been days when it feels like this is precisely what I’ve done and that I REALLY should have done something else.
- Stew leftovers for lunch
- 2x chicken breasts and 3 large cox apples + 2x tubs of cottage cheese
- Frozen fruit + yogurt + banana
(No sit-ups or press-ups or dumbbells)
- 4x Aldi wheat biscuits (12syns) with strawberries, blueberries and banana + unsweetened almond milk
- Butternut, sweet potato, chicken, courgette + mushroom
- 3 Large apples
- Frozen fruit + yogurt + banana
- Picked cabbage + can of mackerel
(Big dumbbell workout in the evening)
The positive side is that the rather epic portions of food that I’ve been eating are mostly free or speed foods – and in many cases this week (without really trying) they’ve been ENTIRELY SP.
(in SW terms this basically means meals consisting of just speed and protein food groups – which are good for boosting weight loss.)
Yesterday I experimented with some butternut squash and answered the question that must be on everyone’s lips.
‘Can I stir-fry butternut squash?’
Well – the answer is ‘yes. Sort of’ – in a kind of ‘no – not really‘ way – because what you end up creating is actually far from fried once you’ve cooked it long enough to soften the squash and make it edible.
However – at the very least I appear to have found a way to make really tasty ‘stirfrysoup’.
It’s a pretty quick meal to make too (about 30 mins cooking on a high heat) compared to boiling a broth in a pot.
This is chicken, mushroom, butternut squash, courgette, baby sweet corn, chilli and onion with a veg stock cube and 3 cloves of garlic.
It was huge and it was lovely and when it was cooked I ate the flipping lot of it last night.
Despite meals like this making me feel like I’ve really over eaten this week I’ve clearly still been eating the right foods because I managed to lose a pound and a half!
There’s only another two pounds to go and I get my nineteen and a half stone certificate.
So far I’ve lost 271 pounds / 123 kilos!
That kind of statement really requires a pregnant pause for effect.
(Author inserts pregnant pause for effect.)
It’s a lot.
I know that because people keep saying things to me like
‘That’s a lot’.
Honestly it’s ceased to make any sense to me on any level. The mad thing is I WAS THE ONE THAT LOST THE FLIPPING WEIGHT AND EVEN I CAN’T COMPREHEND HOW I LIVED WITH IT ON MY BODY FOR ALL THAT TIME!
It’s just an insane, perverse, incredible, upsetting, shocking, shattering number.
However it’s also a number that’s further away in the rear view mirror with every day that passes.
Onwards and downwards Internet!