It’s 8am and as is customary for a Saturday morning I’ve not had much sleep. Today I’m doing another two motivational talks at Slimming World meetings – and rather nerve wrackingly one of them is my own group.
I’m not entirely sure why this makes a difference – but it does, because whilst others see me as I am today, a lot of these people have seen me as I was back then.
They know a lot of what I’ve been through and I like them a great deal. I feel like I mustn’t disappoint them.
In common with all perpetually paranoid slimmers this morning I’ve dressed in nice light clothes and headed off to group early so that I can weigh in before the talk (that way I can drink coffee beforehand!) and see how my week of #onplanoctober eating has panned out.
I’m also dressed smarter than usual in a shirt and trousers in an effort to give me confidence.
Partially because of this I didn’t have much of an appetite yesterday…
- Tub of cottage cheese with onion and chive 176
- 6 small tomatoes 60
- 350g celery hearts 35
- 200g ham 238
- 100g pickled onions 35
- 500g grated carrot 210
- Yellow pepper 30
- Half iceberg lettuce 20
- spoonful of mint sauce 5
- Spoonful whole grain mustard 10
- 15 pitted green olives 60 (1.5 syns)
- Can of tuna in spring water 120
- Can of mackerel in tomato sauce. 190
- Half a cucumber 11
- 2 x mor chicken tomato and basil sausages 86 (2 syns)
Total calories consumed 1269 (3.5 syns)
- Active/total calories burned – 1252/3906
- Cardio minutes – 106
- Steps/miles walked 19,125/9.75
This means my seven day averages and totals for week two of #onplanoctober are
- Average calories consumed daily – 1889
- Average active/total calories burned – 1360/4100
- Total/average cardio minutes – 634/91
- Total/average steps walked 146,502/20,929
- Total/average miles walked 73.73/10.53
Now – interestingly this is most probably the best week I’ve had in a LONG TIME with regard to being on plan yet I lost ‘only’ 2lbs – which is less than I did last week (that was 6lbs).
A loss is a loss – and sticking on course will mean I’ll get where I want to be on averages – not massive weekly drops.
I also have my seventeen and a half stone certificate baby!!!
Although yesterday’s post was all about non-scale victories – this is still flipping fantastic!!!
(Author does his talks to the groups)
Today was also food tasting day. I usually cook mine early in the morning on these occasions – but yesterday evening I had to make something quick and easy that would keep overnight – so I fell back on a batch of the mini quiches I love so much.
In order to assuage my guilt for not making something new (which is what I always try to do) I decided to compliment them with ‘things on sticks’ and made some olive, cherry tomato and sausage cocktail nibbles to go with them.
Everyone else’s food was (as always) delicious too, and I found myself going back for a second nibble at some rather nice turkey meatballs before I left for the day if I’m honest!
Talk wise this morning was probably the most emotional for me so far – but it’s been in a positive and life-affirming way.
The whole experience of doing this has been extremely empowering and also very humbling. I may be standing out front today – but any one of the faces I’ve been looking at could have been me – and I them.
The feedback they’ve volunteered has been both heartfelt and personal. At times it’s taken my breath away. People have laughed, cried, laughed again and then cried a bit more.
I’m glad that one of my NSV’s from yesterday was that people could get their arms around me because I’ve also had lots of hugs!
I love hugs 🤗
Overall it’s been something of a rollercoaster day so far and truthfully I’m still processing a lot of the things people have said to me both in person and via social media.
It’s nice to know in the case of all of us that we aren’t alone in the world. We all share the same fears, hopes and dreams – and I keep seeing this in the assembled faces of the rooms that I’ve talked to – which I guesstimate now total around a couple of hundred people.
How amazing that we’re all so alike and that we all care so much about the person next to us in these groups.
If I want anything to come out of this internet it’s for more people to treat themselves with the kindness and support that they give so freely in these sessions to me and everyone else.
That would be a truly wonderful thing.