I’m waiting for 5.20. It’s almost 4pm. It’s been almost 4pm for about three or four hours. Or thereabouts.
Maybe that’s just me being impatient. 5.20 is taking its time but it will (probably) arrive eventually.
I don’t normally sit around drumming my fingers waiting for things – but I’m excited. When 5.20 finally arrives I’m going to be seated in the cinema and watching Ghost in the Shell – a film I’ve been looking forward to seeing for quite a while now.
Back in the early 90’s when (properly translated) Manga started leaking into the UK in decent quantities I became quite addicted to the original animated version of this and Akira (a film that in my view has yet to be equalled in sci-fi animation terms).
The original GITS is a highly recommended and fascinating exploration of what it means to be human in a world where technology is capable of significantly augmenting us. It intelligently asked questions about the nature of humanity if this dystopian future comes to pass – and what we eventually become if we end up more machine than flesh and blood.
When does what we might gain cease to outweigh what we stand to lose?
It’s not everyone’s cup of tea mind you.
My walking companion this afternoon patiently listened to me wax lyrical about how cool it was going to be – and describe it’s premise – before she giggled and asked ‘have you seen La La Land or Manchester by the sea?’
Not everyone yearns for a good science fiction film the way I do it seems, so – my apologies to all the non-geeks out there. If you like gritty reality or musicals you won’t scratch your itches with this particular movie.
I don’t mind that it’s far removed from real life. I’m just hoping that Hollywood hasn’t flicked the ‘let’s remake this and turn it into a shallow mess’ switch as they so often do in cases like this. The reviews suggest it could go either way but I’m trying to keep an open mind.
While I’m waiting and a little bored I’m also trying not to think about food. This week I’m trying to dial back the clock a little to when I first started Slimming World and I wrote down everything I ate.
I know I’ve consumed more than I usually do over the last two weeks. Probably due to all the walking I’ve done my appetite has at times felt like it was endless and I need to try and rein it in again.
It’s not easy though. I find that this kind of discipline is more often than not very counter intuitive – and is something that I don’t really enjoy. This is primarily because you only really need to write all of what you’re eating down if you’re at risk of (or are currently) over indulging.
Paradoxically if you’re already doing this it’s because you’re busy ignoring the reality of what you’re putting in your mouth. Therefore making a list involves consciously moving out of denial and into acceptance. You don’t have anywhere to hide if you see it all on the page in front of you and it can be a bitter pill to swallow.
However – medicine isn’t always nice, but often it helps make things better.
As well as trying to pay more attention to calorie intake again I’m also coming to terms with the fact that what I once considered an epic levels of exercise (which would usually contribute to massive weight loss) is no longer having quite the same effect. In pushing myself every day to walk further and further I moved from my weekly average of 30-40 miles walked to 70 so that I could hit my target.
However now I’ve managed to do this the distance and effort involved to do it no longer feels abnormal and as I carry less weight everywhere it’s not making me drop as many pounds. As I type this I’ve already got almost 10 miles under my belt and I’m still no-where near home. My car is sitting in its usual ‘nobody loves me’ space outside my house.
So – I have to do one of two things. I either double my exercise again or I try and eat less and for the moment maintain my level of activity.
Since my blog is about honesty this is what I’ve eaten since I weighed in.
- SW Hi-fi bars x6 (HE + 12 syns)
- 2 large bowls of salad at Harvester (inc olives 3 syns)
- Aldi Piri piri chicken pieces
- Salmon and prawn stir fry (2x salmon steaks) with tub of cottage cheese
- 250g natural fat free yogurt, banana, frozen berries
- 4x small Braeburn apples
- 50g of fibre bran with almond milk and frozen berries
- hi-fi bar (3 syns) + banana
- pork mince & chick pea chilli (made with courgette, onion, mushrooms, pepper, tomatoes & puree + leek)
- 250g natural fat free yogurt, frozen berries
- 2x apples
- 4 pork medallions and tub of cottage cheese with mushrooms and gherkins
- Salmon and prawn stir fry (2x salmon steaks) 3x medium microwaved potatoes
- 5 x small braeburn apples
- chicken breast + salad, Cottage cheese
- 250g natural fat free yogurt, frozen berries, 50g fibre bran
- Tesco hot Smoked salmon flakes in honey 100g (1 syn) 6 tomatoes + 2 apples
As usual none of this is ‘off plan’. I’ve not eaten any Easter eggs or fallen off the wagon in any other way – I’m just eating a lot (or at least I feel I am.)
I want to lose some weight this weekend. I refuse to stress about it or get upset over it – but I also don’t want to be complacent. Doing lots of exercise is great but on it’s own it’s not going to cut the mustard.
Anyway – enough of this. Time to go and watch Ghost in the Shell!
(author watches film and strolls home in the cool of the evening after a lovely day)
Well internet – I’ve just got time for a mini review of the film before I sign off for the evening.
‘It didn’t disappoint. A cool action film and a believable and gritty world that pays more than enough homage to the original. I enjoyed it! Fellow geeks should love this – but it’s no La La Land and there wasn’t a single thing about Manchester in it. Otherwise excellent despite the lack of musical numbers and northerners.’