I can’t believe that it’s Wednesday already. I’m honestly not sure where the hell time is going at the moment.
I’ve been ‘twalking’ with a friend around the park today and it’s been absolutely perfect weather for it. Whilst the breeze was undeniably cold the sun has been warm and there wasn’t a cloud in the sky. The park maintenance guys have also been very busy cutting back and trimming lots of the bushes and undergrowth in Arrow Valley, making it quite neat and tidy.
You can see the lake from the paths now, making the walk visually a lot more enjoyable.
I’d be shocked enough just with the quality of the weather (it was really rainy and crappy yesterday) but I’m even more flabbergasted that 11 days from now it’s 🎄 CHRISTMAS DAY 🎄 😐.
I’m not particularly festive usually – although I do like Christmas. To be honest the reason I always enjoyed buying presents for people in the past was more because it was an excuse to treat those I cared about than celebrating a festive season.
The only other tradition that I used to have on the 25th of December was getting completely hammered and watching TV. I doubt I’m alone in this respect, but this year I’ll be trying something new. I’ll be celebrating the holiday season by remaining completely sober, looking after my body and sticking to my diet.
I already have a six mile walk planned for Christmas Day and aim to make that particular 24 hours show a weight loss rather than a weight gain.
That’s the plan anyway. Hopefully no-one will find me face down in a tin of Quality Street snoring my way through a full on food coma if I fail…
It makes me happy that I feel like this – and it really gives me cause to be thankful. Every year in recent memory has been very very different to what I have planned for this year’s holiday season and I aim to lay the foundations of a new tradition, based solely around loving others and caring about myself.
My mind is awash at the moment with thoughts about what the future might hold next year, and it wasn’t like that before. Previously every year started and concluded very much like the one that preceded it and there was no reason to think the ones that followed would be any different.
There’s a sense of hope that’s welling up deep inside me and it feels like it could make ANYTHING possible.
This year has been rough though – and I’m not just talking about 2016’s election results. Putting my own bereavement in January aside it seems like lots and lots of people I love have been really going through the grinder with a whole host of personal and family problems. I’ve tried to help where I can but I’m always left feeling that I should be doing more.
I’ve decided that 2017 is going to be about family and friends more than ever.
Since I can’t lavish gifts on people this Christmas (or for that matter in the near future) I decided last week that I’d reach out either in person or in writing to those that were important to me – and for the most part (I still have to catch up with a few) that’s what I’ve been doing with cards, coffee or twalking.
Some pesky international ones are temporarily out of my reach – but I’ll get round to them eventually!
As I said (in a roundabout way) to my park companion today – what I’m doing now, and my focus on self improvement isn’t just about losing weight and looking better on the outside – it’s about being able to do more and spend quality time with those that I care about.
Although I’m probably once again beating myself up, in the past I feel I’ve fallen short of this, and I still view this area of my life as ‘in the deficit column’.
As each ounce falls away though I feel I get closer to ‘in credit’ as I gradually become a more active participant in my relationships again.
In practical terms my physical changes mean often small, maybe silly (but important to me) things, like being able to help someone move house, decorate, do some gardening, taking their dog for a walk if they get sick or doing some shopping for them if they can’t get out.
Lord knows internet – they’ve been there for me. They’ve helped me decorate when I’ve struggled, climbed up ladders to help with my ivy, changed tyres on my car, helped cut down my overgrown bushes, jumped up and down in my wheelie bin, and they’ve always been there when I needed tea and sympathy.
So this year people who are important to me – I plan to give you my full attention. I bet you’ll be sick of me by 2018!